If you ever sit and think "I am going to change the fat to fit, and be fabulous" but then do absolutely nothing about it, you will totally get where I am coming from.
Over the past couple of years I have gained over 2 stone in weight. At a tiny 5'1" it makes me look frumpy and feel gross, yet I can't seem to find my dieting mojo. I have tried every diet going, but I can't seem to stick to them. I was once a skinny size 6 and now I'm a large 14/16. I know lots of you will be shouting "that's not fat" but it's how I feel, and I want to change that! I don't want to be a size 6 again, I'm aiming for a size 10.
I have signed up for the Great South Run again so I need to get back on the diet and start training. Last year I ran it, with a dodgy IT band, in 2:07 which I am really proud of. I was in agony from mile 8 but I finished. This year I want to do it in 1:50, so that means putting the training in and losing some weight.
My problem is I like food, bad food and lots of alcohol. I love running but I hate not being able to run far anymore. I know the more I run, the further I'll be able to go, but I get frustrated. I used to be able to run for 5 or 6 miles easily. Now I struggle to run 2 miles easily. And this demotivates me. I need to get my self esteem back and get out there.
Running is hard when you're fat. That's a fact. Not only do you have the extra weight to carry (2.5 stone in my case), it puts more pressure on your legs which can cause injury. Running hurts now, and this is what I need to change.
So first things first, I will get to the gym more regularly (yes I will go tonight!). I don't just need to clock up the miles on the road, I also need to increase my overall fitness levels and strength. I love spinning so I need to get back to doing 2 classes a week. I like weights and strength training and squats and lunges, even if they do make me ache for days afterwards. I like the feeling I get after being in the gym, I just can't seem to get my fat arse up there after a busy day at work.
Being a single mum who works full time, life is pretty busy. But I need to stop finding excuses and just do it. I can't keep putting it off until tomorrow because pretty soon tomorrow will be too late. I need to do this NOW. I have my first goal which is the Race For Life 5k in Oxford on 14th July. My PB for a 5k is 26:57, which I don't think I'll beat just yet, so I will aim for under 30:00. I also want to lose a stone by then too.
Can I become fit and fabulous, rather than fat and frumpy? Watch this space...
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